Sunday, August 24, 2014

Shoes define who you are

isn't it? well, at least i think so.

i love shoes. i love to look at people who wear appropriate and nice shoes…. and it is not limited to women only. i love guys who wear nice shoes (and appropriate) as well. well, sometimes i think it is an insult if you are super-dressed from top to ankle, but you neglect the last part down there. shoes. imagine a girl wearing a beautiful dress and she pairs it up with a flip flop that we use to perform ablution before praying. guys who wear formal attire but wearing just slippers.. that's a turn off. i see many, nevertheless. of course i dont mean flip flop or slippers are no good. its just that you have to match it with your outfit.

many think that it's a waste to own so many shoes. well, not, if you can have it with reasonable price. i prefer buying many with acceptable price rather than having just one branded shoes and stick to just that one. i love heels. i am confident with heels, maybe to compensate for my petiteness :D but if i am planning to walk a lot, i would prefer comfortable flats. try looking around at ZALORA, they have a lot of shoes ranging from flip flops to heels. for men and women. who doesnt love window shopping? i do.


Shoes serve as a women’s important way of accessorizing their outfit. Whether it be high heels, boots, flats or flip flops, it will look perfect when paired with the right outfit (please, certainly not flipflops with a wedding dress and high heels with trackbottom). However, the types of shoes a woman chooses to wear actually shows to others the wearer’s personality and character. As we have our own fashion mood and style every day we wake up of bed, the selection of our footwear tells others indirectly about our personal character. The famous high heels is the common footwear every woman has in their shoe collection and often wears them to formal occasions such as dinner events, weddings as well as the office. High heels show that you are very confident in yourself and have a strong personality (is that me? is that me?).

ooo.. love.. who doesnt? 

The humble flip flops are the footwear which a woman wears to let their feet breathe awhile from those painful high heels and covered shoes. People would assume someone wearing the simple flip flops as coming back from the beach or swimming pool. Besides that, the flip flops also shows to someone that you are a college or high school student who could only afford flip flops to match with your clothes. The flip flops are suitable for individuals who just want a sense of calmness and relax feeling during the weekends. For women who wear sandals, it is seen to be an upgrade and more stylish version of the flip flop. It tells a person that you still want to be laid back but with a slight hint of fashion.

yeapp.. mine is that one.. the pink one.. :D

Sneakers are always seen suitable to be worn during sports and tough activities. So women who wear sneakers are said to be a very sporty chic which loves taking care of her health. As sneakers are worn at the gym workout session or simply a jog around the park, women are perceived to be an active individual but some may also say that these women are lazy (said mom to me when i was a teenager, read the following you will know). This is because if women are caught wearing sneakers frequently without being involved in any sports activities; it shows that she is someone who cannot be bothered with her lack of taste and fashion style (yeah exactly mom). now its my sisters who match every outfit with sneakers. i guess we all go through that phase, no? So which style do you want to try out today? Or prefers wanting to get new pair of shoes to add into your collection? Have a look at ZALORA as it offers a wide selection of shoes from stylish designs and brands online.

yeah. looks so comfy isn't it? i used to love sneakers, even pairing it with my baju kurung for hari raya every year.  now  that i am a lady (hihi) i always snap at my sister's decision to wear sneakers with everything. 

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Dental students

I longed to write about this a long time ago. But time never permits me. (Read: does not manage time very well)

Everytime i try to write about life as a dental student in uitm, i will end up sounding like a depressed person, who seriously need further medical attention. Hihi. Okay nope. It shouldnt be that scary. Its just me.

So it was in august 2011 i got the offer from uitm, to further my study in dentistry. Currently i am in year 4, dreading the time i finish my study. Goodness. Its freaking 5 years man. Majority of my friends have graduated with flying colors and while they are happy honey-mooning with their life partner, here i am pulling my hairs calling my patients everynight to make sure they come for their appointment tomorrow. At the same time struggling to read and get ready for tomorrow's clinic. Still, i never read enough. Dentistry never comes easy for me as i am not, in any way, artistic. I have a destructive hand instead. So it is a struggle. Most of the times i found myself frustrated over things that go behind my plan and time.

So..  Okay. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. For me, i think, of course one needs to be diligent, knowledgeable, decisive, communicative and skillful to be a good dental surgeon. Now now, dental surgeon sounds like a big thing compared to dentist right. It is the same nonetheless.

Why diligent?
Well. Diligent is that one important criterion to succeed isnt it? But if you are dreaming of a college life with only 2 or 3 lectures and or tutorials per day, then dentistry is not. A. Wise. Choice.
Our schedule is changing everyday. Nothing is the same. It will involve classes from 8 am to at least 5 pm (sometimes 6 pm) every. Single. Day. That doesnt include unfinished project/s where you will need to stay back longer. Most of the times we stay back in the prosthodontics lab to do our lab work for prosthodontics project. Usually it closes at 7pm during weekdays and sometimes it is opened on saturdays. So it is not remote to miss our lunch hours and weekend and staying back until dusk to finish our work. It is a norm.

However, most of us still know how to have fun okay. Its about managing your time right. Prepare yourself before doing any procedures or lab works. Okay sometimes luck may leave us scratching our heads.. Anything can go wrong in lab ( and clinics). Technical or procedural error. So sometimes it might take a little bit longer to finish our work.

Why knowledgeable?
I think you can figure that out by yourself. By the end of this course you will carry a Dr title in front of your name and with it, comes a great responsibility. Contrary to the common notion that dentistry is all about teeth, it actually requires medical knowledge as well. Mouth is a part of your body. Certain diseases can be manifested intraorally and some of dental procedures and medications can meddle with your existing co-morbidities. That, to say a few. We have to know the general well-being of our patients, recognize any tendency for the patient to develop abnormal reaction and customize dental procedures to cater to the patient's need.

What u read in the book mostly is a standard procedure. We humans differ from each other. There are times when things go wrong or complicated. Extra knowledge will come in handy. Of course all the lecturers will supervise us during clinics and will help us if things get complicated. But it is good if you have an idea on how to make things right.

I always think it this way. Dentistry is about restoring and preserving. And when it comes to restoring we will try to make it look natural. So our teeth have different shades of white. The shape and the color of my teeth are not the same like you. Thus, restorative material comes in variety. They have different brands, different quality, different material, different color, different strength, require different handling and different longevity. Easy example, to restore a tooth we have amalgam (metal), composite, or Glass ionomer restoration to choose from. You have to quickly analyse the situation, condition and decide which material you want to use.
That one talking about choosing material.

Another example is; for some procedures we have different techniques or methods to do them. You have to decide which method suits you and the patient well.

And all of these decisions must be made as quick as a lightning. You're chasing time.

Dentistry is all about completing requirements. To complete all that youre gonna need that basic ingredient; patients. Since we are in learning process, every treatments must be made step by step. We have to go through every procedures thus, we take a longer time to complete our treatment compared to certified doctors working in certified dental clinics. Persuading patients and making them understand all these is a tedious and monotonous task. Let alone creating awareness among them to take care of their oral hygiene (read: Brushing teeth correctly, especially before sleep and flossing everyday)

So you have to be very creative and communicative for people to fall in love with you and your work. Losing patient in the middle of treatment is a big loss to us. We will have to start from square one and the time wasted can never be compensated enough.

Dentistry requires a sense of art. Carving teeth, waxing up dentures to mimick the gum, handling instrument gracefully and correctly to ensure maximum performance, etc etc. if you are skillful then you will love this course. Everything will be easier if you have the skills. Skills can be acquired as well. Dont worry.

Talking about the course. I dont really know much about this new course. Since last year uitm has introduced a new type of course (sorry i dont know how to describe it). The new course will expose the students earlier to clinics. I think they will start seeing patients starting semester 2 of year 2.
As for me i started seeing patients only when i started my year 3. Year 1 and year 2 will mainly be lectures. I studied basic medical sciences and oral biology. Oral biology exam was at the end of year 1. The next year i studied basic medical sciences again (a lot) and dental material subject. At the end of the year there were two professional exams which are basic medical sciences and dental material. Preclinical years involve a lot of classes. It was on year 2 that we started going to the simulation lab to complete preclinical projects before we enter clinical years.
In year 3, we took human disease and oral pathology. On thursday every week we went to hospital sungai buloh or selayang for medical and surgery posting (a bit like what medical students do for their clinical years.. Clerking and examining patiets) from year 2 onwards there will be two professional exams every year. Besides learning those two that i mentioned, of course we also learn other subjects like operative dentistry, endodontics, periodontics yada yada yada that will be tested in year 5.
Year 4 professional exams will be in community dentistry and oral surgery. We need to complete the prerequisite requirements before we are allowed to sit for the examinations said. So year 4 we will be busy chasing to complete extractions and dental health requirements. By the word busy, i mean very. Oh yeah. It is in year 4 that we will choose our research project and this will be ongoing until year 5 where we will present our project paper.
In year 5 we will continue life as usual. We will have to complete all the requirements from every departments before we are allowed to sit for the two professional exams at the end of the year. Restorative dentistry and oral medicine. Year 5 we will be very. Extra. Busy. Chasing our requirements like mad to be able to graduate on time. Goodluck to me as well.

So in a nutshell, dentistry is all about completing requirements. By requirements, i mean you have to say, complete how many teeth extractions, restore how many teeth, treat how many dental hygiene patients, yada yada. That how many is determined by respective departments. There are like almost 10 departments and every deparments has their own requirements. So.. It is challenging.

Monday, August 11, 2014

semester break

how tempting those cakes look. i dont want to eat them. no. i want to BAKE them! oh pleaseeee calm this craving down… i cant bake it since i will end up eating it.. adding unnecessary calories and they are all sweet (sorry, mostly) i have to watch what i eat. i cant afford to eat anymore unhealthy food.

so i tried to revert back doing what i used to enjoy.. playing with beads. making bracelets and necklaces. but my tools are in my house at shah alam. urghh. so here i am staring blankly at my computer screen.

however. i just love this feeling. calm, relaxed, not stressed. i appreciate the feeling of having nothing to do or to rush since i dont get that often. oh i wish everybody can have a taste of what dentistry students life like. pheww. i will be very busy every freaking day. sometimes i just have tooo many things to do that i cant lose my time going to the toilet. i have to suppress that need until the end of the day. i cant even..

oh how i love my semester break. no need to be stressed out over whats going to happen tomorrow, having to call all the patients, having to find replacement for patients who cancelled their appointment tomorrow at freaking 10 pm this night! oh goodness… i wonder how most dental students can maintain their sanity cuz i nearly lose mine…………..

Wednesday, July 9, 2014


when it comes to relationship, almost everyone has a piece of advice to offer. mak kiah told you to find a man who is rich, so even if you cry later on, you will cry in a comfortable mansion or BMW rather than in a shack. mak leha told you to find a good man rather than a rich man, so you will later live happily. your best friend told you to choose a man who loves you rather than a man whom you love, so he will spend the rest of his lives making you happy. aminah told you to find a man who is educated. shamala told you to find a man who is good looking. mei ling told you to find a man who is hardworking. they all have their own opinion and experience to share. 

in the end, it all doesnt matter. you will still choose a man whom you are happy with. 

because our story differs. we cannot compare our journey with someone else's. god makes us different, he tests us in different ways.
maybe your guy is filthy rich, but is not faithful (i know i know this is lame. i am stereotyping rich guys hehe) maybe your guy has a master's degree, but every conversation is sooo boring. maybe your guy is good looking but he's childish. plus, nobody is perfect. that is certain. you can perceive a person as perfect only if you come to love his imperfections as well. 

this topic is random. there is nothing personal. just came across a conversation in my newsfeed discussing about what's right what's wrong and who's better in a relationship. 

Thursday, April 24, 2014

should doctors help to implement hudud?

for most of the time, i would have my stubborn opinion on every topics or issues. i would create imaginary conversations and paragraphs in my head. from politics to… whatever

but this one issue, i really have no idea what to think, or how to think. there's a fine line between religion and professionalism. i do not know what i should think.

nobody among us muslims would ever dare to deny hudud. well, i realized that most of us would prefer to keep our mouth shut regarding the implementation of hudud. hudud, irrefutably, should be realized. but how are we going to realize it? it is a problem because most of us have a very shallow idea about hudud. we do not know it as a whole, only the surface, or maybe less than that. i'm sure the thoughts of limbs amputation, caning, stoning and whatnot came to mind when picturing hudud. that does no fair to hudud.

lets put that aside. my major concern is whether doctors should be involved in implementing hudud. i am not taking sides. i dont even know what is right and what is wrong. should they? or shouldnt they? someone please enlighten me. i appreciate opinions from those who maintain their neutrality instead of some religious zealots or liberalist. i would want to hear fair explanation.

i love beaches. who doesnt?

it is made as a sign from Him. the creation is vast, endless, intricate and mysterious in a way that we never know. nevertheless, it is a very beautiful creation. the sound of the waves as they hit the pure white sand simply becomes a melody that is pleasing to the ear, somehow it has the power to calm even the most disturbed mind. the homogenous color of blue green it emits is pleasing to the eye, it also adds to the serenity. oh, wait until you see the sun sets on the horizon, nobody can take their eyes off the view. the yellow orange hue it gives off, plus when the gentle breeze strokes our face.. tell me how can one not love this?

i always find it magical.

yet, underneath that beauty, we can never underestimate the power they held, and i think fishermen would agree with me. in the middle of the ocean, there's hardly calmness. the waves become foe, no longer gentle and pleasing. underneath, it seems bottomless. an abyss. nobody can predict the depth of the sea. comparing my dimension to the deep sea, that's just irrelevant. metaphorically i would be microscopic compared to the ocean. the ocean is very very big. word does no justice to picture the vastness of the ocean.

and that's just one simple creation of my great god, Allah. i just can't imagine how powerful the Creator is. He is of course, greater than His creations. servant? now it feels that i am less than that. how can an ordinary person like me be a servant to the great god Allah. i am less than that.

nevertheless, my lust for the world denies the fact that i am just a servant. i am beguiled by the world, ignoring the fact that i will eventually return to Him and live in the hereafter permanently. Ya Allah, forgive me again.. and again..